Henar Álvarez: “I am very good at what I do, false modesty bothers me” | Culture | EUROtoday

We met on the drop of a hat, I imply on the drop of a hat from Álvarez's devilish agenda, on the headquarters of Onda Cero, on the outskirts of Madrid, the place she has simply been interviewed by Julia Otero, and the place colleagues from the competitors kindly gave us a room for the discuss. The lifetime of Henar Álvarez, comedian and podcasteris currently a gymkhana of labor, journeys to advertise his second guide, Anxiety, and truces at dwelling together with his 7-year-old son. So, because the photographer photographed her on the fly on the Atocha station throughout a type of transits, right this moment life has not been difficult and he or she presents herself with no extra artifice than her hair rolled right into a bun on the crown of her head and two corners on the again. the eyes on the washed face. There isn’t any want to interrupt the ice, even when we don't know one another. It is seeing one another, and smiling at one another, complicit. Years in the past, she posted a tweet through which she stated that she was within the Vatican, they’d compelled her to cowl her shoulders to enter the basilica, however what the guards didn’t know is that she was not carrying panties in such a sacred temple. . A mob of Twitter customers, together with myself, started to disfigure these varieties and he or she took word. This dialog is about varieties and funds. And life.

He now not will get into so many puddles within the networks.

No, I eliminated myself from Twitter (now X) and now I solely use it to unfold my work. Let's see, I criticize rather a lot, I give my opinion on every little thing, and I like to gossip about others, however with my pals in bars or in personal. Since I understand how dangerous it’s while you instantly get a barrage of shit on the networks, it's been some time since I wrote something private on them.

Why do you suppose we get so into bother?

Because we get bored, and we really feel like a drama. It's like while you get up eager to argue together with your companion, or with the primary one who is available in entrance of you, however in a brutal means. In networks we’re too excited, over-informed, we eat rather more data than we’d like, and it occurs to us like with medication. Each time you develop extra tolerance and also you want extra, sooner, stronger. Before I stop, if I had 3,000 messages, I noticed all of them.

Were you extra affected by the great or the dangerous?

Before, the dangerous ones. Now I don't care. It is simply as dangerous to learn a thousand feedback calling you a whore as it’s a thousand others calling you a goddess, as a result of I’m neither one factor nor the opposite.

Have you had the imposter syndrome?

Never. I swear. I feel it has to do with the quantity of mediocre supporters I’ve seen working round me. I feel, if this man, as a result of most of them are guys, isn't ashamed to do this, why ought to I’ve it, since I'm higher than him, even when it's by comparability. I do know I'm excellent at what I do, false modesty bothers me. Quite a bit. I even really feel like slapping individuals who say with a small mouth that they're not sensible, or fairly, after they know they’re.

Is that self-confidence real or earned?

The reality is that there’s additionally loads of politics in it. I’ve loads of insecurities, for those who talked to my pals they’d let you know. My guide, for instance, I gave to many individuals to learn, and I requested them thousands and thousands of questions. Deep down, I solely appear assured once I'm working. There I don't like to point out myself susceptible, not as a result of I'm not susceptible, however as a result of it appears to me that we have already got many feminine references of that sort. So, rattling, lots of people observe me, and I really feel like I’ve a accountability to them.

In different phrases, it makes use of thick armor

If the reality.

It gained't be make-up, though its protagonist, Natalia, will get a jet of Botox.

That is a criticism of the system. Aesthetics are a approach to maintain us girls underneath management. When she was little, they used extraordinarily skinny fashions and we noticed Kate Winslet as fats in Titanic, Aunt, I see her now and say my mom. The factor is that even I, who am a human individual, have fallen into the lure. I’ve stopped utilizing filters on my networks, as a result of I noticed the hazard. It can't be that I, who am fairly, have a harmonious face, once I stopped utilizing them, I noticed a monster. I'm not criticizing anybody who does it, however you see 20-year-old ladies who take away their expression strains and seem like they're 30. It's loopy.

His novel is titled 'Ansia'. How anxious is she?

Quite a bit, however discover that I relate this need of mine extra to pleasure than to emphasize. I’m very passionate and, for the reason that system desires us to supply on a regular basis, what I like, I find it irresistible and I devour it. I favored enjoying with that concept. Natalia's craving will get out of hand, and, in the long run, she doesn’t do issues for pleasure, however to regulate that craving.

Natalia is untrue, she watches porn, she makes use of males…

But he finds no pleasure in it. Since he doesn't management his life, he controls his physique. Use intercourse extra as an instrument of energy than pleasure. I learn someplace that we go to mattress with our our bodies and our gender roles in tow. I couldn’t agree extra. Here and now, a woman who does what she desires sexually remains to be a whore within the eyes of many individuals. I see very younger guys on TikTok saying that for them to love a girl she doesn't must have a physique depend (sexual relations with completely different individuals) excessive. Times and slang change, however deep down it’s the similar sexist mannequin of intercourse as once I was younger.

How a lot of you is there in Natalia?

Natalia will not be me, however she has issues about me. All characters have it, even probably the most repulsive ones. When I write, once I create my monologues, I dig into probably the most disgusting a part of me as a result of I feel individuals can determine with a few of that. We all have our shadows.

What are yours?

Well, for instance, when the college moms insult Natalia by calling her a whore for being untrue or for writing about her sexuality, I’ve to confess that I’ve performed it too. I'm extra conscious now, however once I was youthful, I insulted different girls for doing the identical factor as me. We are additionally sexists as a result of we reside in the identical system.

But you presume to be free.

Don't suppose I take into account myself very free. I’ve my bondages. Now that I’m a mom, I discover myself considering that the audios and movies of me which are on the market might trigger my son to be made enjoyable of in school. There is one, for instance, on the podcast Stretching the gum, the place I say that I’ve exercised my pelvic flooring a lot that I can crack nuts with my pussy. You will snort, however I feel they use it to snort on the youngster. Which doesn't matter to me, however now one other little individual comes into play. That upsets me rather a lot.

Do you suppose that occurs to male writers?

Of course not. We usually are not measured by the identical parameters. The honor and decency of households falls on the conduct of ladies. There isn’t any must go to fashionable characters, in any household, moms are judged extra and harsher than fathers.

What different issues about your self do you not like?

I let you know overtly: I’m very envious.

What makes you envious?

People who’ve some huge cash and loads of energy. I’m envious of the consolation, the tranquility. Not having to fret about something. For me, happiness is that nobody touches your balls or coughs on you. For me, the most important life change I’ve ever had in life was not having to consider not making ends meet. And that occurred solely six or seven years in the past. And I'm 39.

Speaking of consolation, what issues make you uncomfortable?

Ugh, so many… From somebody not showering in a closed room, to not paying the identical salaries in an organization for a similar work and we’re seeing a genocide in Gaza, or my boyfriend moving into mattress with out brushing your tooth. I’ve instances when he provides me every little thing extra equally and others when I’m extra tense.

There are those that name it peculiar. Does she offend you?

No. I’m an peculiar individual primarily based on what is anticipated of a girl right here and now. I communicate loudly, I swear, I really feel like I'm falling, I don't cross my legs. I don’t attempt to match into the mildew that has been imposed on us and that’s the one that’s rewarded and blessed.

That feminism that “unites us and does not confront us” that some discuss?

How lazy. Social actions come to remodel issues, and while you rework actuality, there are individuals who lose. So, it’s a must to hassle. Feminism that doesn’t hassle will not be feminism: it’s advertising and marketing.

By the best way, are you carrying panties?

Today Yes [ríe]however I won’t carry them.

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